(a couple of) Weeks in hell

So the past couples of weeks have been hell!!! My weeks of hell started off just as any other week did, I got ready for school, went to school, but then something wierd happened. Me and my sister got checked out right at the beginning of school. This never happens because my mom would never check us out like that, and she didn't our g-ma did. We got to our grandma's house and I'll never forget what she told us. She said "kids... Billy got in a car accident this morning and died..". Naturally I didn't think of my brother first off because she has a neighbor named Billy so i thought it was her but then i thought harder and it was my brother. Billy had built stuff for people i don't exactly know what you would call that i guess construction work but whatever. He was on his way to work and for some reason he swerved off the road hit 3 mailboxes then swerved to the other side and flipped. Somewhere during this his arm came off. Very gruesome. We never saw this coming so long story short we went to his funeral and at the funeral my sister Laura started hyperventilating in the parking lot and that was the worst thing I ever saw in my life I thought she was dieing. She got better though. I don't mean to sound like I don't care about my brother I just don't like talking about it because I still ain't over it yet. I hardly knew him really. It was really crazy because when we got home everybody was sayin' "I'm so SORRY" and I was like ANYWAY, the week after the week he died we find out that someone else died that we knew from a heartattack and stroke but he wasn't in our family. so my life pretty much sucks right now. But whatever it's gettin better I guess.